1425 wave goodbye
“you……”
“you……”
“You say it first.”
“You say it first.”
“I……”
“I……”
The two people spoke at the same time but paused at the same time, were stunned but chuckled at the same time. The synchronized gestures perfectly interpreted the daily action of "looking in the mirror". It was weird but also had a sense of normality, and then the two people simultaneously They became quiet and just stared at each other quietly. No one spoke, but no one left..
The pain of the splitting headache has completely disappeared, leaving only a void. Faintly, the fingertips are trembling slightly, the toes are floating gently, and the chaotic and trance-like feeling seems to be standing in the clouds. I can never find my center of gravity, and all my perceptions and thoughts become blurred..
Is this reality or fantasy? Is this a dream or an idea?？
he looked at him.
He looked at him too.
A touch of sadness and bitterness slowly spread. Neither of them spoke, but they couldn't help but feel palpitations. They couldn't tell whether it was panic or fear, or whether it was joy or anxiety. Time and space were at this moment. Everything has completely lost its meaning. There is nothing but black around you, endless black with no end in sight..
“you should say goodbye.”
As the silence slowly spread, a third voice appeared, as if passing through his ears and ringing directly in the depths of his mind. He and he turned their heads together, and then saw Heather Ke appearing out of thin air. Ross.
Why is Heather here?？
Why did Heather and Chu Jiashu appear at the same time again?？
Why did Heather choose this time to show up?？
Before the previous questions were answered, the latter questions arose again, and Renly immediately realized his clumsiness: without the cover of gentlemanly etiquette, without the sophistication of two lifetimes, and without the calm and repressive restraint, all of his Emotions seem to be unable to be concealed, just like a newborn baby, everything is revealed nakedly.
The Heather in front of her was wearing a white lace dress, with a bright smile, bright eyes and thin shoulders. Everything seemed to have not changed. The power of time had forgotten her existence, allowing her to still retain that beauty. With her innocent and playful face, time is frozen forever at the age of seventeen..
Heather stopped five steps away, waved her hand with a smile, and said hello, "Hey.”
“……”Renly tried to say hello, but the words were stuck in his throat and no sound came out. He thought he could face it calmly, he thought he was used to it, but the dull pain deep in his heart rippled again, Then my eyes couldn't help but turn red..
In the end, Renly could only show a big smile, a bitter but bright smile, and nodded lightly towards Heather. That was all..
Heather seemed to notice Renly's gaze, and her smile widened, "Renly, I'm fine, I'm serious, I'm fine now, don't worry about me. The most important problem now is you, you're not good, you are not good at all.”
“I'm fine." There was a trace of difficulty in Renly's smile, trying to hide his true emotions, but he found that he couldn't do it at all, and all his thoughts were revealed without any concealment. Even if Heather did not As he continued to speak, Renly also became embarrassed. He shook his head helplessly and lowered his gaze..
Then Heather said again, "You should say goodbye.”
“I already told you." Renly tried to argue reflexively..
Heather was not in a hurry, but looked at Renly quietly, and paused for a long time, "Renly, you know you don't have it, otherwise, you wouldn't be stuck in the same predicament, time and time again. , over and over again, like a nightmare, entangled countless times to this day. He is here, and I am here too..”
Renly raised his head, looked at Chu Jiashu directly opposite, and then at Heather on his right, then closed his eyes in pain, "I said goodbye, more than once; but I don't know what to do. Keep waving goodbye, I don't know. I can't do it." Renly shook his head gently, every movement seemed to consume all his strength, "I can't do it..”
“Renly, the real farewell is not farewell, but embrace and acceptance, or remembrance and commemoration. What we need is reconciliation with ourselves." Heather said softly, "I am here, he is here, we are always here. .Farewell does not mean forgetting, but a new beginning.”
No one can completely say goodbye to the past.
Because it is precisely thanks to past experiences, good and bad, positive and negative, smooth and twisty, happy and painful, that all of them are put together to become who you are now; therefore, when you are a When a person begins to say goodbye to himself, he is tantamount to denying the value of his own existence. Even if he completely changes his appearance, those memories are deeply rooted, and the past is like a nightmare and will always be entangled..
Renly is no exception.
Those memories and experiences that belong to Chu Jiashu have made Renly who he is now. Those pains, those frustrations, those tortures, those depressions and those darkness, all of them are deeply hidden in the depths of memory, and the changes in appearance But after all, it's still the same soul. He thought he was calm, he thought he was used to it, he thought he was honest, but...he didn't.
He just started a new life.
Carefully hide those memories in the depths of my mind, like a huge and ugly scar on my back. After the pain, the wound healed, and then I refused to look back again, running barefoot straight ahead with all my strength. It seemed that as long as I didn't look back, the scar would disappear. Once it exists, you can turn over a new page, as if the scar has never appeared before..
Same thing about Heather.
but he was wrong.
From "Fighting Cancer" to "Transcendence", from "Gravity" to "Drunk Country Ballads", we are entangled and trapped again and again, and we say goodbye and turn around again and again. Those memories have never truly calmed down. , ignoring does not mean disappearing, ignoring does not mean recovering, running away does not mean getting rid of.
Now, comes "Exploding Drummer" again. This lingering nightmare still remains in the depths of my mind from beginning to end. It never disappears or subsides. It comes and goes again and again. The real farewell never Finish.
The so-called farewell is not to completely cut off the past, but to open your arms, embrace the scars and pain, embrace the hardships and ups and downs, acknowledge the truest and most complete self, embrace all the beauty and ugliness, and accept the frustrations, fears, and Torture, but also accept the happiness, joy, and sincerity, embrace yourself bravely and firmly.
When you accept everything calmly, the farewell can truly come to an end, complete the transformation, transform into a new self, open a new world, and start a new life..
Just like Le'Veon Davis in "Drunken Country Folk".
At the end of the story, LeVine finally returned to the Kerosene Lamp Bar again, came to the stage, and played the melodious and moving song "Waving Goodbye", but this time, he was alone without Mike's company; He no longer complained about others, was no longer cynical about the world, and no longer felt sorry for himself. He opened his heart and truly accepted the fact that he was alone.：
“One morning in the future, not too far away, you will call my name and I will say goodbye..”
Lewin accepted the fact and the wound began to heal slowly; however, he lost his direction as to what the future should be. He could only wait for his mood to calm down and start over again. Maybe he could find the direction, maybe not, but at least, he I won’t continue to paralyze myself anymore.
So does he.
He should learn to be grateful, grateful for those ten years of being bedridden, which allowed him to settle down all the irritability, and know how to be satisfied with a little happiness; he should learn to be grateful, grateful for the illness that bound his body, allowing him to understand the meaning of life and let go His hands and feet are running wildly; he should learn to embrace, embrace the pain and torture, so that he has strong nerves to face all difficulties.
In those ten years, not all memories were painful and dark; in the previous life, not all memories were dim and dull. Only by truly embracing Chu Jiashu can we stick to Renly Hall's choice.
He doesn’t know what will happen in the future, but he knows that he is eager to make breakthroughs, he is eager to continue to make progress, and he is eager to achieve greatness. He will never give up easily, let alone surrender. This period of life is still very long, and he is still far away The enjoyment is far from over.
He should learn to perform alone and lose his crutches——
No longer deliberately distinguishing the differences between Chu Jiashu and Renly, but embracing all memories calmly; no longer deliberately demonizing the time on the hospital bed, but facing all moments honestly; no longer deliberately trying his best Running wildly, as if a wild beast is chasing behind you, lest you slow down a little, this period of life will disappear like a dream..
So does Andrew.
He has talent, but he is too green; he has talent, but he lacks experience; he has ability, but he needs time; he has the potential to be great, but he must believe in himself.
Everything is contradictory. He needs to accept the positives as well as the negatives. He no longer gets stuck in it because of Fletcher's strength and madness, and he no longer forgets the essence of drum beats because of the pursuit of extreme speed. No longer forget the original intention because of the fierce competition, and no longer worry about gains and losses because of achieving great dreams..
If Andrew himself restrains himself, if Andrew himself imprisons himself, if Andrew himself rejects himself, then he will never be able to go further and can only stay where he is, like an epiphyllum, which after blooming proudly, will quickly wither and wither. fleeting.
Break and then stand up.
But the premise is to admit yourself first. Andrew is like this, and so is he..
“We need to make peace with ourselves.”
Caught off guard, Renly's heart received a heavy punch, and with another heavy punch, those scabbed wounds burst open again, and a flower bloomed from the blood. The pain that penetrated deep into the bone marrow and seared the soul was like a grand event. The fireworks show exploded heartily, destroying all Renly's defense lines..
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