1365 Not a hero
“Stand-By-Me）.”
“OK）.”
Renly just stared at the two text messages on the phone screen quietly. The smile on the corner of his mouth slowly rose amidst the sadness and bitterness, and a faint warmth flowed deep in his heart..
“"Stay with Me" is the name of a movie about a group of twelve-year-old children who embark on a journey along the railway to find the body of another twelve-year-old child. It's about growth, friendship, and youth..
There is a line at the end of the movie that is very impressive：
“Although he and I have not seen each other for ten years, I know that I will miss him forever. I have never made as good friends as the group of friends I had when I was twelve years old. Maybe everyone is like this.？”
Renly was lucky, he met Matthew.
In March last year, after Renly went to New Jersey to visit the sleeping Heather Cross, he saw Matthew, and he took the initiative to mention the movie to Matthew; a year passed in the blink of an eye, and in his On the night when the EGOT miracle was created, I looked around for my friends and found the same person again..
Is there such a friend in this world? That person understands me even better than myself, and is always waiting behind me. Even if the whole world is on the other side of the chasm, he will always stick to the same place. . He will not get closer. After all, he is not a relative or a lover. He will keep a distance neither far nor close; but he will not take a step back and leave. You can always see his figure when you look back..
He gently closed his palms and held the slightly hot phone in his palm. He lowered his head and looked at the Tony Award trophy in his left hand. The tight shoulder lines slowly relaxed..
Looking back at the Radio City Music Hall behind him again, the smile on the corner of his mouth rose slightly amidst the cheerful and light melody in his mind, and he quietly ushered in his own relief..
“let me go.”
This is a brand new melody. The brisk guitar strings are running under the sun like a gurgling river. You can also vaguely capture the heavy bass sounds of jazz drums and basses jumping between the melodies. The bitterness in the corners of the mouth and the shoulders. All the heaviness turned into musical notes, flying in the wild wind of the night.
“I don’t want to be your hero, I don’t want to be a big shot, I just want to live a serious life like an ordinary person; I don’t want to be part of the show off at your masquerade party.”
He, Renly Hall, doesn’t want to create history, he doesn’t want to own history, and he doesn’t want to be a shining moment in history. He is just an actor, and he only wants to be an actor, and pursue it seriously. Follow your dreams, run as much as you want, cheer as much as you want, enjoy as much as you want, just open your arms and you can fly in the wind.
He is not a photo on the photo wall, nor is he a hashtag on Twitter. He has no intention of becoming someone’s hero, and he is not capable of shouldering such an important responsibility..
“Everyone should have the opportunity to grow on their own. To have a stable job that supports my family. Maybe I'll buy a few new strings. Maybe we'll spend the weekend together. We can whisper and tell stories about the American dream. The secret. Babies need to be protected, but I am a child like everyone else.”
This is his life, and he continues to move forward at his own pace, not for awards, not for box office, and not for history, but just to embrace his dreams..
Everyone saw the dazzling halo, but no one saw his persistence in practicing hard for "Explosive Drummer"; everyone saw the glory of creating history, but no one saw him performing. The decline and struggle; everyone has seen the peak and brilliance recorded in history, but no one has seen the hardship and pain along the way..
EGO？
Of course he likes it, accepts it calmly, and is sincerely grateful. But after EGOT, he doesn’t want to be the diamond crown at the masquerade party. He just wants to calm down with his friends, stand on the windowsill, drink a glass of beer, and listen. A melody, reading a novel, chatting, joking, complaining, talking about interesting and boring topics.
All he needs is a space to whisper and tell the secrets about his dreams.
God, he missed Heather so much..
“So, let me go. I don’t want to be your hero. I don’t want to be a big shot. I just want to live a serious life like an ordinary person..”
A gust of wind blew in his face, it was biting and cold, and he couldn't help but shudder. The cheerful and exciting melody revealed a touch of sadness and bitterness. After all the hardships and vicissitudes of life, he was just an ordinary person after all. .an ordinary person who is nervous, moved, at a loss, excited, frightened, worried, and sad.
“Renly, you did it." In a daze, Renly seemed to hear Heather's laughing teasing, congratulating him generously, but his bright eyes were shining with joy, and suddenly He made a face and shouted loudly, "But... what about the next work? What about the album you promised? And what about the drum set that you are learning? I'm looking forward to it！”
That is the most real him.
Dance as if no one is watching; sing as if no one is listening; work as if you don’t need to make money; live as if today is the end; love as if you have never been hurt. Same. And... perform it as if it's the first time in forever..
He's not a hero, and he doesn't want to be one.
Involuntarily, his eyes were filled with warmth again. The mood swings tonight were a bit too severe. Renly had to close his eyes immediately, panicking to hide his embarrassment. Everything turned into I picked up the surging melody and sang loudly in the back of my mind, as if no one was listening..
“So, let me go. I don’t want to be your hero. I don’t want to be a big shot. I just want to live a serious life like an ordinary person. I don’t want to be a part of the show off at your masquerade. Everyone should have it. Opportunity to grow alone.”
He took a long, long breath, opened his eyes again, stared quietly at Radio City Music Hall in front of him, and then his eyes fell on the Tony Award trophy in his hand again..
This is a three-dimensional round coin-shaped trophy like a globe. The upper part is made of brass and a small amount of bronze. The outside is nickel-plated. It has a matte glow under the moonlight and street lights. It is lighter than expected. It seems that It's like juggling when you throw it up lightly; but it's heavier than expected, and the weight weighs heavily on your heart through your fingertips..
This is his merit and his medal, but in the final analysis, what it rewards is still his work, but also his dream and his efforts. Regardless of luck or destiny, in the end, after twists and turns, it finally arrived. His life has become the gorgeous feathers that embellish the wings of his dreams..
However, his steps still will not stop.
As said before the award ceremony, he is an actor, and his work should be his medal. This was true before, it is true now, and it will be true in the future. He should put all the glory aside for the time being and return to his job. Among them, there is no need to bear the burden and no need to scruple the vision. The award is just the icing on the cake..
When another day begins and another day ends, the only thing that remains unchanged and will not change is his identity as an actor..
So, Renly held the trophy tightly in his palms. He needed to feel the weight of it, pressing it heavily on his heart, reminding him all the time: he needed to work harder, he needed to be more devoted, and he needed to be more dedicated. Focus, become a better actor, and leave your own footprints in the long history with your works and roles.
EGO.
For Renly, too, it's not the end but the beginning.
Compared with the "Little Golden Man's Curse", the "EGOT Curse" is even more terrifying, because now he is already at the pinnacle. He will truly be at the top of the mountain and feel miserable at the top. There is no room for further improvement. He can only There is room for decline. Next, everyone will be curious, what should he do? How should his career develop? Is the next step to break through the sky and enter the universe?？
But Renly knew that he didn't need to change.
He is still the actor with dreams, passionate for a role, devoted to a role, and forgetting everything for a role..
Renly took a step forward, without pausing or hesitating, and left the noisy and flashy Vanity Fair behind him with his own feet. Now he couldn't wait to return to the practice room, continue to practice drums, and then devote himself to " This is not an easy thing to do during the performance of Explosive Drummer. Even Renly himself understands this, but he will not waver in any way..
It doesn't matter even if he needs to walk alone on this road. Because he was like this at the beginning of the story; now he just has to go back to the starting point, return to his original intention, and understand again, maybe he can also find different gains..
Renly didn't call Nathan, but jogged all the way out of Radio City Music Hall, heading towards Greenwich Village in downtown, like a madman..
Radio City Music Hall is located in the Rockefeller Center in Midtown. It takes more than 25 minutes to drive back to Greenwich Village. It is a distance that is impossible to reach with two legs - at least for Renly, an amateur like him. An athlete couldn't do it, but Renly kept running without a care in the world..
Until my lungs started to burn, I was breathing heavily, and sweat soaked the inside and outside of my shirt. Then I stopped a taxi and returned to my house in the easiest way..
“Oh, Nathan, I'm already home... Well, I came out early to get some fresh air, and then went for a walk back by myself... This means you can get off work early for a holiday tonight. Why, isn't that right? Is it a good thing? why do you sound so nervous？”
Renly was on the phone with Nathan, and then opened the door to the apartment——
“Bang! Bang bang！”
Note: Hero——Family-Of-The-Year）
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