1178 No way of knowing
The apartment as the filming base began to get busy. All the work this morning has ended. The next step is to move the set and continue to engage in follow-up shooting. The staff began to pack up the equipment. Amidst the trivial sounds of collisions, the dullness and depression It becomes more and more obvious.
But the two actors didn't move.
Renly and Kerry were still sitting where they were, maintaining the movements of Llewyn and Jane. Everyone around them was moving and engaged in busy work, but their time seemed to have stopped, and the same world was still there. Divided into two parts, one running wildly and one stopping.
Kerry watched Renly intently, replaying the performance in his mind..
In fact, more than half of the scenes deviated from the track of the script. The emotional surges and changes of LeVine and Jane were all the result of improvisation. According to the setting, Jane never really loved LeVine, and LeVine Wayne's thoughts have never been discovered, but during the actual performance, the moment of eye contact, the heartbeat became real, and everything became a matter of course..
Kerry truly believed that Jane actually loved LeVine, not that she had ever loved him.
She envied LeVine's talent, wantonness and pride, even jealousy, as if the wind could never be grasped or settled, free and unrestrained, and its fatal attraction was enough to make people's hearts beat, but After all, LeVine couldn't give her the life she wanted, so she chose Jim, even though she still loved LeVine deeply..
So, when her beloved LeVine was washed away and became darker little by little in the vicissitudes of life, Jane's mood was complicated and indescribable. She had compromised, was it his turn now?？
Such full and complicated emotions, during the performance, Kerry did not need to carve or interpret at all, it was revealed naturally, as if the whole person was immersed in that emotion. At that moment, Jane became real and fresh. Come alive, no longer just a character in LeVeon Davis’ story, but a real existence with your own life, personality, and story..
This is a unique performance experience, and it is also a performance experience that Kerry has never experienced before..
She recalled Marcus' comments about Renly, those comments about the Pioneer Village singing video, the comments about the entire "Don Quixote" album, and the performance on the first day when the crew met, and her curiosity couldn't help but bred out.
“Can I ask you a question? "Kerry suddenly asked.
Renly raised his eyes, gradually breaking away from the atmosphere in the movie, "Does Marcus know?"？”
He asked a question without any warning or clue. Kerry couldn't keep up with the rhythm for a moment. He blinked and his eyes fell on Renly for a while before he reacted.——
Renly is still Llewyn and has not completely escaped; and their current postures have always maintained the relationship between Llewyn and Jane. In a trance, the triangle relationship in the movie seems to be projected into reality, and Jim does not know it. LeVine and Jane's personal love, then what Renly asked Marcus at this time……
Kerry was both angry and funny, "Gentleman, you are not my type..”
Renly didn't answer, just shrugged, with a noncommittal look, as if to say: That's not necessarily the case..
That confident look actually made Kerry chuckle, "Do you always talk to girls like this? I thought you would use more elegant and advanced methods..”
“Even nobles are the same underneath their skins." Renly's answer made Kerry snap her fingers, and she nodded seriously, "I like this answer..”
Then Renly returned to the original topic, "What's the problem?"？”
This time, Kerry kept up with the jumping speed of Renly's thinking, but after a little gag, the atmosphere was no longer the same as at the beginning. Kerry himself realized that the question was a bit childish, and showed a shy smile, but still spoke. Asked, "I just want to ask, have you ever thought about giving up?"？”
give up.
Just like Mickey and LeVine, they finally chose to give up after going round and round. But no one could tell clearly whether they gave up their career, gave up their dreams, gave up their lives, or... gave up on themselves; and In other words, when they choose to give up on themselves, their lives have stopped..
Some people are still alive, but they are dead; some people are dead, but they are still alive; and some people are still alive..
In Renly, Kerry completely ignored age and experience. She just saw an actor who used his life to interpret performance and art. The truth between his gestures and smiles left a lingering aftertaste. She couldn't even tell whether this was expressionistic acting or method acting. The only thing left in her mind was shock, an indescribable but inescapable shock..
So, Kerry became curious.
How does such an actor survive in Hollywood? And as the heir to a hereditary noble family, how did he make his way out carrying the weight of life?？
All the confusion turned into the simplest question.
It seemed like an extremely difficult question, but Renly didn't hesitate or pause at all, and gave the answer simply and neatly, "Of course.".”
The answer was so straightforward and so natural that Kerry couldn't react for a moment, so he couldn't help but be stunned, and reflexively asked, "Are you serious?？”
Renly chuckled lightly, "Absolutely." He nodded slightly, his thoughts still staying on LeVine's point of view, without breaking away, but the part about self-doubt and self-anxiety always remained true, "Persist and always It’s not easy. Everyone is more or less confused. Is my persistence correct? Is my choice wise?？”
“More importantly, are you right? "A simple sentence, but it contains countless profound meanings. For actors, especially those who calm down and slowly study their acting skills, almost everyone has asked themselves: Do I really have talent? Those so-called talents are It’s not the blind confidence you take for granted？
Until he stood on the stage in London's West End, Renly was actually still questioning himself. The mediocrity from the previous life and the paranoia from this life. The words of George and Elizabeth always made Renly fall into deeper thinking..
“A person can have no talent but still choose to persist, but he must understand what he is doing, otherwise, all persistence will lose its meaning, then giving up is a kind of relief." Renly said in conclusion, "It's like Same with Strickland in 'The Moon and Sixpence'. So yes, I have considered quitting, and more than once.”
“But why didn't you really give up? "Kerry couldn't help but asked again..
“If I say, because I am unwilling, do you believe it? "Renly chuckled softly. The fatigue and vicissitudes between his brows were slowly dissipating. The temperament belonging to Llewyn was disappearing, and the light belonging to Renly was emerging. The natural and free spirit in his bones endowed a picture. Two qualities of a face.
Perhaps, this is the biggest difference between Llewyn and Renly.
Kerry nodded seriously, "I believe.”
Renly shrugged lightly, "Sometimes, if you persist for too long, it seems to have become a habit, and giving up becomes more difficult. There are many reasons, maybe because of unwillingness, maybe because of paranoia, maybe because of fear, Maybe...just because I want to continue to persist. But no matter what, there is no right answer and no way to know whether to persist or to give up..”
Kerry didn't speak any more and fell silent, lost in his own thoughts..
Kerry and Renly, Renly and Kerry, they can see themselves in each other.
Kerry has dreamed of becoming an actress since she was a child, but her father, a hotel management consultant, and her mother, a teacher, did not support her. They insisted that Kerry must finish college and seek a more certain future, which hindered her dream..
2004In 2006, Carrey, who was only 19 years old, was introduced to the wife of the famous actor and screenwriter Julian Fellowes and participated in the audition for "Pride and Prejudice". Her smart and playful performance made her Successfully stood out, performed with Keira Knightley, and learned so much.
Due to her non-professional background, Kerry must continue to work hard and learn on the road to acting, and return to London's West End to start from scratch and polish herself bit by bit. However, in the dead of night, she can't help but wonder. Do you have the talent to become an actor?.
Until 2008, she won the opportunity to perform in "Growth Education" through audition, which opened the door to her acting career. In the next few years, her career ushered in a period of rapid development, and she was like a fish in water in Hollywood with many opportunities..
Everything seems to be developing according to the established track. Her dream has become a reality. Everything she once dreamed of has now been realized. Logically speaking, she should be content, she should be confident, and she should be calm.——
But last year, because of "The Great Gatsby", Carrie once again fell into self-doubt. In less than four years after entering the world of Vanity Fair, she seemed to have lost herself again, began to doubt her original intentions, and began to Doubting your own abilities is like...just like Le'Veon Davis.
Therefore, on the first day when the crew met, Kerry saw herself in Renly - or maybe LeVine, and her mood became slightly out of control..
After finishing the filming of today's scene, Carrie seemed to have tasted something, but it seemed too complicated to sort out. She needed to calm down and think carefully..
She looked seriously at Renly in front of her. He was younger than her, had more acting experience than her, and had more outstanding performance skills than her, but he never lost himself. This inspired her again, and her life, which was like a pool of stagnant water, changed again. The smile on her lips rose and she asked a question again, "So, what are your plans next? This work is about to be finished..”
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