1160 sad love
“Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, staring blankly at the pool of blood and camouflage everywhere..”
How tragic and magnificent, every word and every sentence hides a vast story. The bitterness on the tip of the tongue is just like this, bit by bit, and then he is singing, "Crazy love destroys everything. , cut off the rope and fall into the abyss. Oh my god, my god, my god, my god, at this moment, obsessions are everywhere.”
Unprepared, a sourness and pain hit my chest hard. This was a love with no retreat, running wildly and wantonly, destroying everything. When everything ended, that kind of obsession The madness and impulsiveness are like a dagger stabbing the heart, and blood spurts out..
The melody did not become depressed, but the strumming became more and more cheerful, and then the singing voice became free and unrestrained, and the outpouring emotions were vented like thousands of horses galloping..
“I once said, be patient; I once said, the dawn is coming; I once said, keep your mind balanced; I once said, stay kind." There was a trace of unspeakable pain in the vicissitudes of the song, bringing with it with anger and sadness.
Standing in front of the cliff, open your arms, embracing the storm, "When the morning light breaks, I will be with you, but it will be a completely different look. I will bear all the punishment, and you will reap all the benefits." reward.”
Then, it stopped suddenly.
His dedication and persistence became so stupid the moment love disappeared. The melody and singing stopped at the same time, leaving a lingering aftertaste surging in the air, but the thick bitterness made the heart start to tremble slightly, and the slightest sound I couldn't express myself, couldn't feel the air at all, I could only sit there in a daze, the sky was dim and the earth was dark..
The guitar strings sounded again, and the faint singing voice hummed, "Forget it, what happened to this skinny-love; the thin and indifferent hope, we just squandered it like this. Oh my god , oh my god oh my god, the burden is getting heavier and heavier, and it's gradually falling apart..”
The bitterness in my mouth just spreads out.
I blinked my eyes, but found that my eyes were so dry that there were no tears at all. The sorrow and pain were so overwhelming that after reaching the extreme, I couldn't cry. I could only stay there, just like that, as if the pain nerves had been numbed. After that, my mind went blank, and I stared blankly at the slow passage of time..
“I once said, be patient, I once said, the dawn is coming, I once said, be balanced, I once said, stay kind. If your love has become flowing water, then what am I? Now I have lost everything, even the last place in your heart.”
Every word is so heavy that it makes people breathless. In this gamble, he blocked everything and lost everything. He lost everything and even disappeared completely. Even the traces of his past existence disappeared without a trace. Without a trace, then, what are “memories of the past”? What’s even more sad is that “once perseverance”, what is this?？
In the light, his eyelids were still slightly drooped, and the sadness and pain between his brows had disappeared, leaving only peace. Singing quietly, dancing quietly, living quietly, like a zombie, his soul withered and dissipated. , "Sorrowful love", like the flowering period of a rose, blooms proudly, suddenly withers, and is fleeting..
“Who else could love you so much? Who is still struggling? Who would willingly fall for themselves?？”
Ridiculous, sad, deplorable, pitiful; what is more terrifying than sadness is that even the strength of sadness is gone, all the strength has been exhausted, and in the end only a body is left, just like this... alive.
The melody was still running, cheerful and light. He hummed along with the melody softly, "Yeah, yeah, yeah." The bright melody made people want to dance, selflessly and wantonly, over and over again. Once again, forget all the troubles, forget all the pain, forget all the heaviness, just dance.
Suddenly, a thought flashed through my mind: What if the other half of this rich and passionate love was just a dream?？
In an instant, my soul felt like it was struck by lightning, and all the lyrics came to my mind.：
He once said, stay patient, the dawn is coming, even if the pool is full of blood and the ground is disguised, they still need to continue to persevere; even if it becomes increasingly burdened and disintegrated, they still need to chase the weak hope and continue running. When they give up, He lost everything, so what does he once have?？
So, "Who will still love you so much? Who will still struggle? Who will still surrender to themselves?"？”
The creamy yellow light was still soft and bright, falling on him, but completely different stories and memories appeared in everyone's eyes. The same ones were full of bitterness and sadness, and the heavy emotional drag. He was holding his ankles and sinking little by little. He couldn't cry or shout..
Just sit there quietly like this.
“He's not Renly." Paul could hear a low voice coming from his ears. He was slightly dazed. When he turned around, he realized that it was Anne who spoke, and made a "hmm" sound to express his inquiry. Anne repeated again, "He is not Renly.”
That's not Renly.
Scarred, exhausted physically and mentally, faltering, falling into deep despair, feeling lost and at a loss. Then, with all despair, I began to ask myself whether I should give up, whether I should persist, whether I should choose again, then A kind of fragility cannot be hidden at all. Even if the spine is straightened and the pride is still there, the fragmentation deep in the soul still lingers..
A clip from last year's Grammy Awards ceremony came to mind in Anne's mind. Renly stood on the stage and sang "Beast" in a clear voice. He was sad, he was bitter, he was fragile, but he was She is strong, and that obsession has never disappeared, and has even shined brighter. That is her Renly.
“Why? "Paul asked softly.
Anne shook her head, pursed her lips tightly, and repeated for the third time, "He is not Renly.".”
She couldn't explain why, but she knew unswervingly that the figure on the stage looked very, very much like Renly. At certain moments, the boundaries seemed to be blurred, but after all, it was not Renly. She knows, she just knows.
But even Ethan and Joel weren't so sure.
Joel's eyes lit up slightly. During the performance just now, he thought of LeVine, and he also thought of LeVine's partner Mickey..
They were all members of the wave of the times, but in the end Mickey was still unable to resist the tremendous pressure, and finally chose to give up and end his life, ending everything tragically and decisively, but leaving behind LeVine There were irreparable wounds. Everyone thought it was because LeVine's career was in trouble, but at this moment, they knew that was not the case..
Who else could love you so much? Who is still struggling? Who would willingly fall for themselves?？
This is LeVine’s question to Mickey, a question to his dream, and at the same time, it is also a self-questioning question to himself..
So, Lewin raised his head high, proudly and aloofly refusing to compromise. Deep in his heart, he was afraid that by his own compromise and retreat, he would fail Mickey's sacrifice and his own. persist in.
LeVine would rather give up the copyright than let himself and Jim take the same path; LeVine would rather become a sailor again than find a chorus partner like a quartet again; LeVine would rather be rejected again than refuse to be like Troy. Become a pretty boy who pleases the public.
Because once you give up persistence, you also give up yourself.
This is stupid, this is crazy.
But LeVine has been persisting. What’s even more ridiculous is that even he doesn’t know whether his persistence is correct or meaningful. He is stuck in place, spinning and spinning again, at a loss. At a loss what to do, but still gritting his teeth, unwilling to let go of his last breath.
At the end of the story, he sang "Hang me, oh, hang me" and "Wave goodbye" again, but the meaning and mentality were completely different. It was not until this moment that he really said goodbye to Mickey..
“Oh my God, my God, my God, my God." Joel couldn't help but whispered and repeated, his heart was raging and he couldn't help himself..
Joel simply couldn't imagine that Renly had done it, Renly had actually done it! In just one performance, the entire character of Llewyn was outlined, given a soul, and even given a spiritual thread that connected the entire story. In this short time of one song, it was said that After countless vicissitudes of life.
“Oh my god！”
Joel was so excited that he just wanted to scream, as if he had finally found the last missing piece of the puzzle. The incomplete feeling finally became complete. He tried to communicate with Ethan, but the feeling in his mind The turbulent thoughts were so crazy that he couldn't express them. He could only focus on the figure on the stage, and the words just blurted out.——
“LeVine, is this a track you composed yourself? Llewyn, not Renly, "I haven't heard you sing this song before, I mean, is it Mickey's creation?" Or is this your latest work? If possible, I hope you can perform at the Gaslight again in the future.”
“No, it's not." LeVine twitched the corner of his mouth and showed a self-deprecating smile, "I can't compose such a lingering/sentimental/pathos song, this is not my style." This made the guests in the bar. Everyone let out a low chuckle, "This is a song from Bon-Iver. He wrote the melody and lyrics himself. I just adapted it slightly according to my own style.".”
Bon-Iver, the folk singer who competed with Renly for New Artist of the Year at the Grammys last year, is a singer who really exists in real life. At the same time, the song just now was also composed and performed by him..
In an instant, the 1960s and contemporary reality were confused; but the wonderful thing is that LeVine is still LeVine, Joel is still Joel, the kerosene lamp bar is still the kerosene lamp bar, the crew is still the crew, After the dimensional wall between reality and illusion was completely broken, there was no sense of violation at all, but the wonderful atmosphere was continued..
This was a rare and special experience for everyone present！
Note: Skinny-Love——Bon-Iver）
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