1137 Avoid medical treatment
After leaving Mount Sinai Hospital, thin raindrops were still falling over Manhattan, lightly patting my cheeks. Then I realized that this was not drizzle, but light snow, with snowflakes the size of rice grains falling along the way. The light wind was swaying wildly, and the dark and gloomy sky seemed to be slightly brighter..
Opening your palms, snowflakes fell on your palms. Before you could take a closer look, they turned into droplets of water, leaving a faint chill. In the blink of an eye, your palms were filled with water droplets, and the slightest chill was unbearable. I started to shiver.
I stopped a taxi with my hand and walked through the wet city streets. I was in the busiest and most indifferent city in the world and headed towards my home. The taxi stopped under the apartment building and I raised my head. You can see a touch of warm milky yellow in the windows on the third floor, and the faint halo dispels the haze and coldness of winter..
Climbing up the stairs, Renly did not stop on the second floor, but went straight to the third floor. He opened the door with the key hidden on the lintel, and walked towards the kitchen as if he was back at home. , and then began to look for the kettle and tea leaves, trying to make himself a cup of hot tea to drive away the cold, but his eyes were filled with confusion and no clue at all..
Matthew Dunlop was browsing the contract documents on the computer. After noticing the uninvited guest, his eyes shifted from the computer screen to Renly. He quietly observed Renly's every move and watched Renly acting like a man in the kitchen. Like a lost child, Matthew was not surprised at all.
It would be a rare event if Renly could find his target.
Not to mention his home, even in Renly's own apartment, there is probably no place for a kettle and cups. To Renly, the kitchen is like outer space, and everything is out of reach; Strictly speaking, this is true not just in the kitchen, but in all household chores.
Matthew closed the laptop, took off the gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, walked toward the kitchen, and then patted Renly on the shoulder, "Don't stay here and make trouble. You just made everything change." It's just worse.”
“Hey! At least I'm trying," Renly protested..
But Matthew didn't appreciate it and complained coldly, "Sometimes, for some things, not working hard is the wise choice..”
Renly raised his hands in surrender, "This is why I will never learn. You never believe in me and are not willing to give me a chance to try. How can I learn?" The words have not yet been spoken. , Matthew turned around and gave Renly a look, and then Renly closed his mouth and showed a big smile, "So, the wisest thing is to continue to maintain the status quo. This is good..”
Turning around, Renly left the kitchen and lay down on the sofa in the hall..
In the same building, the layout of the third floor and the second floor are very similar. After entering the door, the kitchen is on the left, the hall is on the right, and the second half at the far end is the bedroom space..
However, Matthew still made changes according to his own needs. The hall on the right is divided into two parts, the front and the back, by a huge bookshelf..
The part near the door is the living room, with a set of navy blue linen sofas, and a dark brown peach wood coffee table in the center. The corner part is still a solid wooden bookshelf, forming a right angle with the partition bookshelf, with densely packed bookshelves on it. Large legal books on display.
The part near the bedroom was converted into a study room. A large desk was neatly divided into categories, with various legal documents placed there. There was also a dark red low table with a small bookshelf next to it. Countless vinyl records are neatly placed.
The entire space is more fully utilized. Unlike Renly's downstairs, which is spacious and leisurely, the upstairs seems a little crowded, but it also highlights the warmth of the family. However, the relatively narrow space is full of local books. If Say Renly's collection of books is a bookcase, then Matthew has a library.
Therefore, every time Renly finished studying, he would come upstairs to Matthew to search for books..
Sitting on the sofa in the living room, it looks cold and professional. There are no pillows, no entertainment facilities, and no tea sets or wine glasses. It seems that all non-professional and entertainment props have been consciously collected. The tough lines and Deep colors outline a professional image.
Renly tried to find a relatively comfortable position on the sofa to relax, but he couldn't find it, so he began to adjust his posture constantly, looking like an active child. Who can I believe this is "Master Renly" who has always been known for his gentlemanly etiquette.？
But Matthew has long been accustomed to it.
When he came to the living room again, Matthew had two extra pillows and a blanket in his hands, which he handed to Renly. Then he returned to the kitchen, where the water had been boiled, black tea had been brewed, and some simple snacks had been prepared. He walked over with the tray, and then saw Renly who had completely entered relaxation mode, stretched his body, and even the tension in his whole body relaxed..
Matthew didn't seem to be affected at all. After putting down the black tea, he returned to the office and continued his work..
The brief commotion only lasted for a moment, and then the apartment became quiet again. Matthew returned to his work with full concentration. They had been busy with the case at hand for nearly four months, and now it was about to go to court, and there was another case. A series of work needs to be completed, and he must speed up the progress..
The hourglass of time slowly began to flow, and it seemed that the sound of rustling snow could be vaguely heard outside the window, and the winter afternoon became extremely peaceful..
“Would you have any reservations in this friendship because you know that this person is destined to die or leave? Do you even choose to retreat?？”
Without warning, Renly's voice rang out, with a hint of exhaustion and weariness, resounding in the warm air in the room, like crackling firewood in a fireplace..
Matthew was stunned for a moment, and did not answer immediately. Instead, he began to think seriously..
Everyone knows that you can’t stop eating because of choking, and you can’t hide your illness and avoid medical treatment. But life is not a theory. Everyone has their own emotions. They will be hurt, afraid, timid, and hesitant. Even if they know that this is the right choice, it is not. Everyone can persist.
Isn’t every friendship meant to be like this? Isn't everyone destined to die? Isn't everyone's existence destined to become nothingness? However, they cannot choose to give up just because they are afraid of the unknown, and then rest on their laurels and stay where they are..
After the death of Heather Cross, Renly has been thinking about this question..
Not just Anne Silliman and the other kids at Mount Sinai, but Paul Walker.
Renly clearly knows the direction of future development, and he wants to do his best to avoid those tragedies. If possible, he is willing to do whatever it takes to save Paul's destined ending and truly change the development trajectory of history..
But, can he really?？
Can he really be the savior? Can he really save everyone? Can he really completely reverse the theme of birth, aging, illness and death? Can he really reverse the course of his destiny? Can he really flap his butterfly wings and cause a tsunami in the Amazon?？
It's as if there are angels and demons existing at the same time in my mind, insisting on my own opinions, refusing to compromise, and confronting each other tit for tat..
Renly thought he wouldn't care, but he realized today that unknowingly, he was avoiding Mount Sinai Hospital, and he was also avoiding Paul. As a man in two lives, he boasted that he could see through life and death, and he didn't care about his situation. Forgetting everything; but for friends, he still couldn't do it after all, and the fear deep in his heart still existed objectively.
“I will." Matthew's voice came over calmly..
They all know that according to common sense, they should not give up. Can't those terminal cancer patients have friendship and love? Can’t those old people who are dying soon have a life and dreams?？
But truth is truth, life is life.
Knowing the truth of the outcome, they still choose to fly into the flame. This is not the way of aristocratic education and elite education. They should learn to rationally seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and effectively control losses, examine the pros and cons of things from a long-term perspective, and learn to trade-off.
From the perspective of a superior, reason should cut off emotions, and the small self should be sacrificed for the sake of the greater self. This is the right choice of course..
So, after careful consideration, Matthew gave his answer.
But after he said it, Matthew couldn't help turning his head. Through the gap in the bookshelf, his eyes fell deeply on Renly. He just looked at him calmly. After a while, he added, "But, you are not me.”
Renly is always different.
If we follow the way of thinking of the nobles, it is impossible for Renly to become an actor, nor to create miracles, nor to embrace his own freedom and dreams. Therefore, Renly has broken the shackles, knowing that he cannot do it, but still Do it boldly and really do it.
After a simple question and answer, Renly burst out laughing. A slight smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and he sighed softly, "Maybe..”
One sentence seems to have profound meaning, and the taste has an intricate taste, which is difficult to describe and express..
Matthew's eyes were still on Renly, and he waited for a long time, but never waited for the next step; then, the sound of Renly's long and calm breathing came to his ears, and he seemed to have fallen asleep, which made him Matthew raised his eyebrows slightly, not feeling surprised at all. He just withdrew his gaze and stared blankly at the computer in front of him, dazed for a moment..
After taking a deep breath, Matthew came back to his senses and threw himself into his work again..
In the afternoon in New York, it began to snow sparsely, and as night fell, it became heavier and fiercer. People couldn't help but stay at home, craving for that touch of warmth and comfort to spend the cold winter..
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