1114 false hallucination
Stunned in place, Alfonso Cuaron's eyes filled with tears before he realized it, before he made a rational judgment. The surging tears completely blurred his vision, leaving only confusion, astonishment, and shocking emotions. There are ripples in the water halo.
He knows, he finally truly knows now, the relationship between Ryan and his brother, the alienation between Ryan and his family, the dependence between Ryan and his dreams, the regret between Ryan and his brother and his children... From getting rid of social attributes to returning to social attributes, from being above life to returning to the origin of life, on the road of pursuing the truth, after going around a big circle, we finally return to the starting point..
It's like... it's like a mortal transformed into a superman, possessing God-like divine power to dominate and create life; but after re-understanding, he realized again that the existence of super-god power itself also comes from life, so, Complete the second transformation again, return to the starting point of a mortal with down-to-earth ground, and see a completely different new world.
Survival and death, rebirth and destruction, life and nature, mortals and gods, reason and emotion.
Everything is both the starting point and the end point, connected from end to end, completing a circle. After going around and around, we still go back to the origin. It seems that it is still the starting point, but the whole world has changed. The mountain is still a mountain, but it is no longer that mountain; Water is still water, but it is no longer that water.
This is very complicated, this is very profound, this is very philosophical, this is very convoluted; but, this is also very simple, this is also very straightforward, this is also very profound, this is also very clear, everything is rooted in the depths of the soul. , has never disappeared, never changed, just waiting for human exploration and pursuit.
Some people go their whole lives without realizing its existence; some people pursue tirelessly but still fail to reach the end; and some people complete sublimation and transformation in an instant of enlightenment, opening up a new world. Open the door to a new world.
At this moment, Ryan realized it; and at this moment, Alfonso truly glimpsed the true power——
It’s not a performance, it’s not an interpretation, it’s not a deduction, it’s the power that comes from reality. The baptism deep in the soul is like a torrential downpour, and it flows down in a mighty way. The whole person can’t help but start to tremble. It’s excitement, it’s Fear is also worship.
At this moment, Alfonso truly understood how huge, tedious, and difficult Renly's work was. With every move and smile, he easily controlled the atmosphere of the entire place, not to mention the other actors or the audience. , even the director couldn’t help but be immersed in it.
God. Oh God.
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Ryan's whole body movements froze, and his expression froze for an instant. There was no change at all, but he tried his best to suppress and control, and tears still continued to seep out, one after another, crystal clear water droplets. Quietly blurring those dark brown eyes, heartbreaking.
He remained motionless like this, fearing that if he moved even a little bit, he would completely fall apart and disappear into ashes..
“You're holding a baby, right? "Ryan asked softly, immersed in the baby's cry, joy overflowed from the depths of his eyes. It was not a smile, but joy and happiness, quietly flowing with a touch of spring light, like a hot spring. It's like water, gurgles and rolls, and the hot air makes people melt little by little..
This is not the Ryan Stone that people are familiar with. It is not the cold and unsmiling Ryan. It is not the Ryan who still tries to save his teammates when his life is in danger. It is not the Ryan who knows nothing except professional knowledge. Ryan, who lives like an idiot, seems to be slowly melting the iceberg with the tenderness and warmth in his eyes..
“Are you singing a lullaby? "Ryan said again. He didn't get a response, but he didn't care. Instead, he hummed softly unconsciously. The fragmented notes couldn't be pieced together at all. They just choked in the depths of his throat and rolled slowly. "That's really true. It's so warm." He said softly.
Unconsciously, the smile rose again, "You know? I used to sing lullabies to my brother." Ryan's voice was slowly sinking, revealing a hint of hoarseness, and his eyes were filled with tears again. "But...we haven't talked to each other for a long, long time." Then, Ryan tilted his head slightly and twitched the corner of his mouth in a self-deprecating tone, "It's not his fault, he has been working hard.……”
The last note slowly dragged on, without any continuation, but the sadness and sigh in the eyes were really clear. You could faintly taste the bitterness of regret, which instantly stung the heart and penetrated deep into the bone marrow..
Ryan didn't make any more noise, just listened quietly. The crying, the low lullaby, the melodious melody, light and gentle, but the unfamiliar melody and unfamiliar language had no impact at all. , just let the tight and sharp facial lines gradually soften, all the sharpness and all defenses are removed, and return to the most original red fruit appearance.
“You say, can I still see him? "Ryan murmured softly, vague words colliding between his lips and teeth. Before he could finish speaking, he had already disappeared..
……
Quietly staring at those dark brown eyes, calm and calm, there seemed to be no waves at all, just immersed in deep thoughts, but Rooney could read the delicate changes, sadness and despair between the eyebrows , bitterness and pain, struggle and torture, all the complexity and tediousness are slowly dissipating, returning to a peaceful state without joy or sorrow..
Then, she knew that he decided to give up. He gave up the hope of survival, gave up the possibility of resistance, gave up the effort of struggle, and just accepted his fate calmly, opened his arms, and embraced death. She knew that he had done it. Preparation for death is like the moment Alex releases the buckle.
However, Alex made a critical momentary decision. It seemed to be just an instinctive action. Hope was cut off in a flash, and the severe pain lasted only a moment, and even changed due to the burst of adrenaline at the critical moment. It had to stop slowly, and it was over before I had time to experience it carefully..
But Ryan is an extremely long process. After struggling for a long time, he successfully escaped from death. At the moment of hope, he suddenly fell into the ice cave; then he endured torture and cut off everything bit by bit. The rope of hope, and gradually broke down his inner defenses, attacking all the vulnerabilities to pieces..
Not only is it painful, but it’s also so long and cruel that it’s almost impossible to continue watching..
But Rooney still opened her eyes wide, savoring the torment and torture of this moment carefully, and feeling the performance of this moment carefully, which was profound and magnificent, making every audience completely empathize with it..
The sound of silent wiping of tears could be heard in my ears, as well as the sound of strenuously suppressed choking. The suppressed anguish and pain were amplified to the extreme at this moment, which was unbearable..
……
Ryan breathed out gently, and the corners of his mouth rose slightly. Then without any extra pause or preparation, he moved again and began to turn off the lighting, power, and finally...turn off the oxygen..
The whole movement was completed in one go. He only paused for a moment before turning off the oxygen, but without too much struggle. Then he completed the movement, steadily and gently, as if this was a simple and normal movement..
However, the beeping alarm sound was extremely harsh, constantly reminding him that the oxygen level was beginning to drop, but he was extremely calm. He took off the head-mounted mask on his head, casually rubbed his messy short hair, and slowly lay down on his back..
Amidst the chaos, the lullaby on the radio was still humming softly. The sharp contrast between extreme panic and extreme calm set off a storm in the hearts of every audience member. Only Ryan was an exception..
Ryan folded his hands on his chest, lay down peacefully, slowly closed his eyes, completely relaxed the tightness in the corners of his mouth and facial lines, and murmured softly, "It sounds great, An Ninggang, don't stop, keep singing." ." He breathed out gently, as if he had finished a long day of work and needed a long sleep, "Follow me to sleep, and I will fall asleep immediately..”
“Don't stop, continue, continue..." The fatigue and tension between the brows slowly dissipated like a tide, experiencing the ups and downs of self-salvation, the thrills of crisis, and the despair, hope, and despair. Things have turned around, and now, the whole person is completely relaxed, and one can clearly feel the distress on that face..
The voice calmed down little by little, and in the end there was only the vague syllables murmuring and colliding between the lips and teeth; all the emotions between the eyebrows dissipated and fell into complete calm, that kind of tranquility, which was sinking deeply. Entering sleep, it seems that the whole world has quieted down, everything is quiet.
This is not giving up, but the dissipation of life; this is not compromise, but the silence of life; this is not peace, but the bleakness of life.
He is tired, he is tired after all, after struggling for so long, running for so long, fighting for so long, he can finally unload his burden and take a good rest. He needs sleep, real deep sleep, he I don’t want to continue fighting anymore. I’m tired and tired, so I just let it go. I just need a moment of peace..
In that kind of calm calm, it seems that one can clearly see that fatigue and lethargy are slowly dissipating on the surface of the body. At the same time, the bright light that is gradually dimming disappears. It seems that the flame of life is slowly extinguished. The oil is exhausted. The lamp is dry, this is the most suitable and appropriate word.
All the sounds in his mind disappeared, all the noise in his ears calmed down, the world became completely quiet, and only he was left, like a newborn baby, born alone and dying alone. Begin and end without worries.
Suddenly, there was a gentle knock on the door in the silence, bang bang, bang bang……
He slowly opened his eyes, opening a slit, and light penetrated into his eyes. In the haze, he saw... Heather Cross.
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