1073 come back to life
Dreams and reality have been completely confused. The so-called boundaries have lost their meaning. Renly's life, Chu Jiashu's life, the vastness of the universe, the narrowness of the hospital bed, the beauty of dreams, the cruelty of reality... everything has been It turned into chaos. Now, he has no way to think and distinguish.：
Survive or die. This is the only struggle in the soul. Without dreams, freedom and hope, what is the difference between survival and death?？
He could not even speak clearly and drooled. He was even deprived of the right to shake his head and refuse. He refused, he did not want to continue to live like this..
Therefore, even though he looked at the shattered Ding Yanan and knew that he was so cruel, he still kept talking, even without a complete syllable..
“Yes, so I am a selfish bastard, I chose to give up, not you, I gave up on you, I also gave up on myself, let me go, please let me go, okay? I've been trapped here for so long. I don't want to be trapped here for a lifetime, and I don't want to trap you for a lifetime. It shouldn't be like this, things shouldn't be like this..”
As he spoke, he burst into tears again, looking at his mother sincerely, "Please, let go, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." The tears flowed into his mouth along the braces, and there was a bitter sourness. , and then he began to cough violently, as if even his lungs were about to be vomited out..
In his hazy vision, he stared at the familiar yet unfamiliar face. Those memories that he thought were gradually forgotten were awakened again in the corner one by one..
I haven’t seen him for a long time, but that face seems to have never aged and is still the same as in his memory. Every wrinkle on his forehead appeared because of himself; the bloody fingers hurt his heart. , truly reminding him that she paid a lifetime price for him.
“Mom." The moment the words came out of his mouth, he couldn't stop crying. He couldn't stop crying for a really long time. "Let me be free, okay?？”
At the same time, it also frees you.
He can embrace freedom, and she can embrace freedom. Death is always painful, but it will come one day. Only when he leaves can she start her life again..
After putting on braces, for the first time, his voice came out accurately, but it was like a dagger, stabbing hard into Ding Yanan's chest. In his hazy vision, he only saw Ding Yanan's face. He stood there with a stunned face and sad eyes. His tears burst completely and he stood there at a loss..
The two people just looked at each other quietly, but refused to give in to each other. The silence spread slowly. In the end, Ding Yanan was defeated. She shook her head, shook her head desperately, but could not say a word. In the end, Ding Yanan was defeated. I could only leave the ward quickly and run away..
But he couldn't do anything. He was still stuck on this hospital bed. He could only watch his mother's back disappear completely. His body didn't react at all, just like a marionette, motionless. Then, even his vision changed. It was so blurry that all the scenery seemed to disappear in the tears..
Living like this is worse than death.
“you are a coward.”
There was a clear and soft voice in his ears, and he turned his head reflexively, and then he saw the figure standing next to the hospital bed, wearing a familiar hospital gown, with the loose clothes hanging empty on the bed. On the thin shoulders, it looks like a sack.
This is because her body muscles are shrinking little by little. Gradually, only a skeleton is left in her already thin body. Her originally fitting clothes slowly become wider, reminding onlookers all the time. She is walking towards death step by step.
Everyone knows this, but everyone avoids talking about it. Only they always pretend to be relaxed and tease, turning those sad things into jokes, and even laugh heartily. They, that is him and Hai Cross.
“……”Heather, Heather was standing next to the hospital bed like this, but their roles were reversed. The person lying on the hospital bed became him; and the person standing beside the bed became Heather. He couldn't help but widen his eyes, his brain had completely lost the ability to think..
During the reversal of roles, the boundary between reality and fantasy began to blur. He had completely lost his judgment. The chaos was becoming more and more turbulent. Is he Chu Jiashu or Renly? Is this fantasy or reality? What is a dream, and what is reality? More importantly, isn’t Heather already dead?？
Everything seems to be in chaos, completely in chaos. Could it be that he has begun to have fantasies?？
While dumbfounded, he couldn't help but open his mouth slightly, staring at Heather in front of him, unable to make any sound. He tried to reach out his right hand and touch Heather's rosy cheek, but then he found that he couldn't move at all. That frustration instantly turned into anger.
A trace of tears flashed across Heather's eyes, and she slowly sat down at the end of the bed, "Besides, you should know clearly that those are all excuses. You chose to give up, but you put all the blame on it." To others, on the surface it is to free your family, but in fact, it is just that you refuse to continue to fight, you do not want to continue to persist. You are a coward.”
Heather's eyes were so bright and vivid, and the little tears shone brightly, as if they were carrying the stars in the sky. The halo burst out with vitality, freshness and flexibility..
Involuntarily, his eyes were covered with a thin layer of tears, embarrassed and solemn..
Subconsciously, he wanted to raise his right hand to wipe away the embarrassment and embarrassment from the corner of his eyes, but then he found that his body still had no feeling, so he could only close his eyes, let the tears fall down, and then tightly, tightly Close your eyes tightly and grit your teeth to prevent your emotions from leaking out.
At this moment, he was so fragile, like a newborn baby. All defense lines, all masks, and all equipment were completely taken away, and he showed his most vulnerable and true side..
There was a faint warmth on his cheek, and a small hand gently wiped away the tears on his cheek, and then you could hear Heather's chuckle, "This is the second time I see your vulnerability..”
He slowly opened his eyes, showing a puzzled look..
Heather seemed to understand immediately and explained, "The first time was in the garden of the hospital, when you composed the song 'Beast'. Do you remember?" Heather retracted her fingertips and said with a smile, "In Your melodies and lyrics reveal your vulnerability, and it wasn’t until that moment that you became real..”
“Before that, you seemed to be just a perfect prince charming, the object of every little girl's involuntary crush in her heart, but when she grew up, she forgot about it in the blink of an eye; but after that day, everything changed and became It's different." Heather's eyes showed a trace of nostalgia, as if she had entered into the fragments of memories..
But he couldn't help but froze, and a trace of astonishment slipped through his eyes..
Heather pursed her lips shyly, and then laughed generously, "Why, can't a girl be bolder when it comes to her crush? What's more, you've already seen my secret, haven't you? It would be ridiculous if we continue to be secretive now. I am not a white lotus..”
“Pfft." He couldn't hold it back and just chuckled. After a short pause, he saw the narrowing in Heather's eyes, and the two of them laughed happily at the same time..
Unconsciously, the two people gradually became quiet, staring at each other without speaking, just letting the air surge slowly. Then, the sadness and despair, the helplessness and pain, like a rising tide, came again. Completely fill the silent space.
“I know it's not easy." Heather broke the silence..
“Believe me, I know it better than anyone else. I know what it feels like to clearly see your end and destiny, and no matter how hard you fight, it will be of no avail. I also know what it feels like to chase your dreams and embrace freedom. It’s already extremely difficult to get up, and it’s even more difficult to execute it. You can’t even see the direction. What does that feel like?.”
After a slight pause, Heather's voice deepened, "I also know how easy and simple it is to choose to give up, and how difficult and painful it is to choose to persevere. Those who have not experienced it, the difficulties they imagine are more difficult than the reality. For example, less than one ten thousandth, they will never understand.”
“We are all the same." Heather said softly, showing a sad and lonely smile, "Now, I finally know. We are all the same..”
The two people exchanged glances, and a trace of forbearance flashed through their eyes. After a slight struggle, they quietly fell into a calm state of forbearance..
It's like standing at the height of the universe and only seeing a piece of dust in your sight. Everything is calm and calm; but in the dust world under the microscope, the sky is shattering, the mountains are roaring and the tsunami is roaring. The pain is only Only Chen Chen can understand it. Others are just bystanders after all, and they are just another world after all..
Passing through dreams, through reality, and through... life and death. He and she finally met again and saw each other's true face. They were not special dream chasers, just ordinary people struggling on the line of life and death. People try to break free from the shackles of fate and have a moment of youth in their own lives..
Even if it is fleeting, there will be no regrets.
Heather did not continue talking. He once taught those principles to her, but now she came to wake him up. He and she were like two sides of a mirror, clearly seeing their own reflections..
“Remember, how it all started? "Heather showed a big smile, "I mean, everything, not just the 'Pacific War', not just getting rid of the shackles and pressure of the family, but here, everything starts from here. , do you still remember what the scene was like when the seeds first started to sprout?？”
“The Truman Show”.
He remembers, he remembers everything.
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