1071 survival instinct
Calm down. Calm down. Calm down..
But, fuck it, calm down！
The chaotic brain turned into a mess, a mess, and a surge. The uncontrollable panic was rapidly devouring all the reason in the mind..
This is just a self-experience. This is a personal experience arranged by himself. This is the effect he expects..
According to the plan, the emotions and emotions in the first stage have already been experienced once during the "buried alive" period. He does not need to repeat the useless work again today; instead, he adjusts his state and slowly enters the second stage. Pie feeling.
Therefore, what he needs to do now is to calm down, completely eliminate that useless fear, and get back on track..
However, the plan could not keep up with the changes.
In that boundless silence, the raging loneliness began to occupy every cell in the body.
The bigger the universe, the smaller the individual; the vaster the tranquility, the weaker the individual; the vaster the world, the humbler the individual. What's worse is that he can't find a companion, and he can only face such a majestic and majestic situation alone. In the universe, the endless pressure began to vent, as if...as if he had to carry the whole world on his back alone, and it was difficult, really difficult..
That feeling of loneliness begins to make people feel scared and timid..
I raised my eyes and searched every corner of my field of vision, but found nothing. Except for the emptiness, it was still emptiness. I just felt the loneliness more and more, which was surging..
When he was in the coffin, the world was so small. He only had to raise his hand and he could touch the edge and top of the entire world. Everything was within reach, squeezed in so cramped and urgent that it almost made people feel uncomfortable. asphyxia.
That kind of face-to-face confrontation was about to break out, as if he could give the opponent a hard blow by raising his fist. So, he resisted. He chose to resist head-on, fighting in the most intense way, trying to use his own hands to fight. Boxing, forcibly carving out a way to survive.
But now, the world is so vast. No matter what, he can't find the boundary. The vastness magnifies everything to the extreme, except for himself..
Even if he raised his fists, even if he gritted his teeth, even if he was prepared, his resistance was still so weak that he couldn't even shake his opponent's strength. His heavy fists just hit the air. There is no point of reference or landing point for all the strength in the body. The feeling of powerlessness sweeps over from the depths of my heart. The resistance has not yet begun. The feeling of powerlessness and helplessness has already gnawed at my heart and bones, and I am almost about to surrender..
It’s not that he chose to give up, it’s that he wanted to fight but was powerless..
What he faced was not a coffin, not a kidnapper, not even a White House or a country, but the entire universe. God, that was the entire universe. How should he fight against it with his fist? Before he even resisted, his hope of survival had been crushed to pieces..
His eyes fell into a daze, completely blurring the focus; the suffocating feeling gradually became hot, as if it was burning his lungs, and then his internal organs slowly began to ignite, tormenting and painful, bit by bit After torturing his nerves and reaching the ultimate level of helplessness, his survival instinct exploded..
He should be calm, he should follow the plan, he should……
To hell with all this！
With great effort, Renly began to struggle hard, flapping his hands and feet fiercely, trying to break away from the restraints, regain his freedom, and then break the situation in front of him, but he couldn't..
The more you struggle, the more painful it becomes.
Every muscle in his body was bursting with powerful energy, but he was still fixed in place, unable to move. The depression and dullness further triggered the feeling of suffocation. He almost couldn't breathe, opened his mouth wide, and completely forgot. Despite the elegance and restraint of this life's education, I was just breathing heavily, but still couldn't feel the influx of oxygen, as if my throat had been completely strangled..
Every part of my hands, feet, chest, abdomen, knees, and elbows felt burning pain. The stinging sensation after intense friction was like countless cow hairs, drilling into the blood along the pores, torturing me. Every inch of skin on the body felt as if the whole person was in a sea of fire. That kind of torment made the depths of the brain begin to scream..
However, he couldn't make any sound at all. He couldn't even feel the oxygen, let alone his own voice..
So, he could only open his mouth wide, like a stone sculpture, frozen in place.
A deep sense of powerlessness surged up, not despair, not anger, just powerlessness, like ants shaking the big tree in the sky. I raised my head, but couldn't see the end at all; I tried my best to search for all the memories in my mind, but I still found it. There is no solution, it is far beyond the scope of my cognition, and it seems that there is no other way but to surrender..
From the body to the spirit, from the consciousness to the soul, it has completely collapsed, collapsed, and been crushed all the way. The feeling of powerlessness begins to erode the soul bit by bit. After the pain reaches the extreme, it even loses feeling and just loses its mind. Start to struggle.
“ah! Ah, ah, ah！”
Even the painful moans became fragmented, like a fish out of the water, opening its mouth wide and trying to find a glimmer of life, but it was just struggling to death between breaths and breaths..
sucker Punch.
Every muscle in his body was resisting, his whole body began to twist, and he completely lost control. His saliva and sweat were mixed together, covering his chin, but he was not aware of his own embarrassment at all, he just trembled and shivered. Trembling, finally exhausted, I leaned under that "big tree", my eyes were blank, and my soul was completely blank..
Panting, panting, her eyes were filled with warmth. Before she could control it, the hot tears broke through the restraints and slipped down, mixed with sweat and saliva, and slowly slid in along her neck, and the hot liquid touched Touching the chest covered with a layer of cold sweat, goose bumps appeared all over the body, and the muscles began to tremble slightly uncontrollably..
So embarrassed.
But what was more terrifying than his embarrassment was that he was not aware of his own embarrassment at all, and he had no time to care about his own embarrassment. The feeling of suffocation was making his brain begin to burn. He tried to roar, tried to shout, and tried to Calling for help, but no sound came out. I could only open my mouth and shout silently..
Think of a way, think of a way quickly！
When he was trapped in the coffin, he never gave up. Why did he choose to give up so quickly now that he was trapped in a vast universe? This is not him, this is definitely not him, he won't give up, he refuses to give up！
Think. Think！
Fuck your thinking.
After the chaos reached the extreme, his brain became a blank, unable to think at all. There were only endless negative emotions in his chest, but even if it was negative emotions, he did not have time to think carefully or sort them out at this time. He just wanted to Vent, and then realized that he couldn't even do the act of venting.——
He wanted to beat the coffin board hard and feel the pain in his fist; he wanted to vent all his strength and burst out his emotions. However, there was only a ball of air in front of him. In the vast universe, He couldn't even find a person to vent to, and then he just froze in place, letting the negative emotions completely destroy the last trace of faith in his mind..
The raging feeling of powerlessness hit his heart one after another, but he couldn't feel any pain at all. With his eyes wide open, he seemed to be able to see that the light of life was dimming bit by bit, as if Like the afterglow of burned ashes.
So magnificent, yet so tragic.
He was a coward, he didn't even resist, he just chose to give up. It was ridiculous, so ridiculous that his tears had lost their meaning and turned into shame, laughing at his incompetence and helplessness. So what now? What should he do now, just wait here for death to come?？
In a daze, the glimmer of light in his sight gradually brightened, and finally turned into a ball of white light, and the world transformed into a large expanse of white, just like... just like a hospital ward..
His feet couldn't move, his hands couldn't move, and his body couldn't move either. He turned his head, only to find that even his neck could only move left and right. He tried to raise his head and look at his toes, but such a simple movement failed. That kind of panic broke out in an instant in his numb thoughts. The nightmare, he actually returned to that nightmare again..
What is more terrible than death is——
He returned to Chu Jiashu's body, returned to the hospital bed, and was trapped in that high paraplegic body again. His soul could travel in the universe, but it was tightly imprisoned here. In this small area, even suicide is not possible, and can only be trapped in place like a walking corpse, waiting for the doctor's verdict and the arrival of death..
Why? why is this happening？
He is Renly Hall, not Chu Jiashu; he has been reborn again and is no longer tied to that world; he is now preparing for the filming of "Gravity" instead of lying in a hospital bed on, waiting for help from others.
No, it's not like this. It shouldn't be like this..
He was struggling, struggling desperately, struggling crazily, but with all his strength, his body could not move at all. It seemed that he could no longer feel even his fingers. His entire soul was tightly imprisoned and cut off in his brain. With all connections between the mind and the neck, the world shrinks to the extreme..
The vast universe shrank rapidly, evolving from boundless to a small area. The panic destroyed all his reason. "No, no, no, it shouldn't be like this, it's impossible, absolutely impossible." He forgot about everything. He growled lowly, struggling harder and harder, not even noticing that his teeth bit his tongue and mouth..
Suddenly, the smell of blood spread in the mouth.
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