A hero becomes an obsessed villain - Episode 339
EP.339 - Regret
"....."
empty house.
There, alone, Stadus wiped away a single tear and felt the night breeze while trying to calm his heart..
My head hasn't quite accepted it yet..
The fact that Ego Stick left.
...When I heard he was leaving.
no way. She was in denial, saying he couldn't have done that... but when she heard on the news that Ego Stick had cleaned up her site and everything else, she gradually began to accept it as reality..
Actually, she knew.
The moment I last met him.
On the rooftop, I felt it intuitively as I looked at his voice and eyes..
Egotic isn't a lie; it means you're really trying to leave..
I think today is the last day I will meet you..
The fact that I have no intention of going out like this again in the future..
Therefore, she threw away the concept she had been holding until now and tried to catch him, but.
'Bye... Starders.'
With those words, he disappeared.
So he leaves.
...After that, I don’t remember much. All I know is how I got home.
Empty house, window side.
There, alone, Stadus leaned against the wall, covering his eyes with his arm and thinking quietly..
...yes, rather good.
An S-class villain who threatens Korea has announced his retirement. Isn't that a good thing? okay. How many terrorist attacks has he caused so far? Good is good. haha...
"....."
To her, who was thinking like that and trying to somehow come to her senses..
Suddenly, a thought occurred to me:.
It's a life without egoism.
'...What is that??'
Actually, if you think about it.
Her hero life was with egotism from the beginning..
The time when I was an immature A-level hero who had not yet adapted to being a hero..
I first met him when he threatened to plant a bomb on a ship..
At first I thought he was crazy..
...Anyway, it was a difficult time mentally..
It was a time when I had just become a hero and didn't have much recognition, not many people liked me, and I lived day by day with only my will..
Ego Stick, who made fun of people by turning on the broadcast, was just an annoying villain... nothing more, nothing less..
But since when?.
The reason he grew so big in his heart.
"....."
okay.
It was a terrorist attack on his plane..
The point at which he had just debuted as an A-list hero and realized that the world could not run on his own will alone..
There were too many villains in the world, and it was a time when I realized that my own power alone had its limits and gave me a bit of resignation..
When Egostick crashed the plane.
She no longer had confidence..
He said that it would end like this, that he would not be able to stop it. I had given up.
And that's when I gave up.
Egostick said quietly to himself.
[no, you can.]
[You can do it. Stop the plane from crashing.]
The foolish guy who caused the crash and told me to stop it again..
however.
At that time, I could feel the sincerity in his words..
As if, of course, she would be able to stop it. His voice spoke seriously.
...which.
Until this time, she had never heard anyone trust her that much. She cried so deeply in her heart.
like that.
Stardust succeeded in stopping an airplane falling from the sky..
And it must have been from then on..
She really started to be called a hero.
...The character of egotism began to enter her mind..
"....."
dark night.
To Stadus, who was leaning against the window and continuing his thoughts on Ego Stick..
As I thought about it, the memories began to rise to the surface like a flood of water..
It must have been after that..
The thing that bothered me about the character called Egostick was.
A suspicion arose that he might not be as bad as he thought..
And that doubt.
When the masked man who subdued the terrorist in the hotel seemed egoistic..
It turns out that his collapse of the bridge played a key role in preventing the monster's attack..
Even more, it increased.
Finally.
'this time. One, chuckle. You owe me.'
Bank of Korea Group underground laboratory.
When a monster attacked her from behind, the day when Egostick sacrificed himself and was stabbed in her place was an inflection point..
Her perception of egoism has completely changed from the inside out..
"..."
After that, Egostick and himself continued to be involved..
Even during the invasion of the Bank of Korea, during the Wolgwang Bridge, and during the attack by the Demon King..
And every time.
In a crisis more terrible than any other situation.
Every time I think I have no choice but to give up.
He always came out of nowhere.
With his signature smile, he smiled at her..
"Mr. Starders..."
do.
Always came. huh.
Tuk. fighting.
"...Is it raining?."
So, listening to the sound of falling water.
She muttered in a low voice.
okay.
In any situation, he came to himself.
No matter how harsh you are to him, no matter how serious the situation is, even when there is no hope anymore. Even when no one helps you.
He always came by my side.
Smiling, as if to say I am. I will help you, I said with a confident smile..
Why didn't I know.
He realized that the person who was always by his side was Ego Stick..
"ah..."
And, Stardus, who was thinking like that,.
Before I knew it, I started shedding tears without realizing it..
In fact, life as a hero was not easy..
You never know when the villains will appear, their attacks are getting stronger, and there is no one who can really sympathize with you..
A job that requires you to stand alone and deal with endless waves of enemies..
But what was able to endure was.
Because he was there.
Just because I know it helps me.
Because I know that he understands me.
I couldn't imagine life without him..
Suddenly, even when I was still, I remembered his face, and sometimes I wanted to hear his voice. I was always waiting for him to cause the next terrorist attack. There was more than once that I missed him..
He is like that.
no more, no more?
"...no."
hate.
I don't like it.
I hated life without him. he couldn't imagine.
Because he was always by her side.
'Cause I never thought he'd leave.
Such a late night. Outside an empty house, leaning against the window showing the night sky.
Stardust began to shed tears without realizing it..
Like turning on a faucet, tears flowing continuously.
"Ugh..."
As I wipe away my tears with my hands.
she thought quietly.
Why does my heart hurt so much?.
It's just that one villain said he would never appear again..
Why is my heart so broken?.
Does it hurt so much that it brings tears to my eyes?.
Why is my heart so tight?.
"ego stick..."
like that.
In a watery voice, muttering his name.
Only then.
Stardust realized.
ah.
I liked ego sticks..
"Ugh, ego stick... Ugh, huh. Ugh, black..."
To the point where I'm falling apart just from the fact that I won't see him again..
To this extent. Really, I liked it.
As the moonlight shines through the window.
The hero is already sitting on the floor.
With red eyes, tears were constantly flowing..
Why did I only realize it now?.
Why couldn't I approach him first?.
Why couldn't I admit my feelings?.
Why did you treat him so coldly in the end?.
I can't live without him.
I can't imagine life without him anymore.
"Oh, ugh. Ego stick... sorry, ugh. Sorry..."
he shed tears.
So, I made an inaudible apology..
Sorry. I don't know what it is, but I'm sorry for everything.
please. Ugh, please...
Where did it go wrong?.
Why did it become like this?.
why did he leave.
He's done so much for me.
Why couldn't I even say thank you properly?.
Why did he tick just because he was a villain?.
Why couldn't I confess my feelings first?.
It didn't matter if he was a villain.
Even if he was a villain, it didn't matter.
It was nice just to be by his side..
So it's already too late and I have meaningless regrets.
Starders that day, all night long. I cried more than ever.
The day I first realized love.
Because that love has gone away.
Because everything is already late.
"Ugh... black. Ugh, huh..."
i like you. i like you. i like you.
I like it. It's my fault.
So, please. Please come back. huh? Please, ugh, please...
however.
he didn't come back.
For the past half year. never.
***
[South Korea is in shock as Egostick announces his retirement.]
"no. Why is Korea in shock when the villain retires??"
The night I announced my retirement and came to see Stardust for the last time..
I muttered in bewilderment while watching TV..
If the villain has retired, 'He's finally retired, everyone!' Seoul is now safe!' I can't publish an article like this... Tsk tsk. The media is the problem..
"....."
When I think like that and stay silent.
Next to me, Seo-eun was excitedly lying down and knitting something..
"I'm going here next week, and after that I'm going here with my brother...."
"No, why are you and Dain tied together? we are?"
"yes? You have to figure it out on your own.."
"...This bitch?"
I was quietly watching my colleagues bickering like that..
Soon, I quietly stood up, opened my mouth and spoke..
"Seo Eun-ah. Oppa, I'll go to my room for a moment.."
"yes? No! I need an older brother too..."
"Shh. Seo Eun, send it to you.."
"Sheesh..."
I bowed my head slightly to thank Soobin for stopping Seo-eun..
I returned quietly to the room, locked the door, and lay down on the bed..
"ha..."
Finally, my life as a villain is over..
Even if you work outside under the name of egotism, you won't cause any more terrorist attacks..
...I suddenly fell into a cartoon and had a hard time playing a villain who wasn't even in the story..
"....."
Lying in bed like that, covering the light with my hand.
I muttered quietly..
"Now."
I won't have to watch Stardust anymore..
....
I thought about that and stayed silent..
Starders.
She became a purpose for me who fell into this dying world, lost everything and lost direction in life..
Because of her, I was able to stand up.
Because of her, I was able to come this far..
Because I don't think I can see her anymore...
"...a little."
My heart hurts.
I muttered that and rubbed my eyes..
Men don't cry.
...It's just that my eyes watered a little. This is okay?
such an empty room.
As I lay down on the bed, with a somewhat heavy heart, I sighed and muttered..
Starders.
"...miss you."
however.
It was meaningless, just words..
*
like that.
late at night.
The man and woman were apart from each other, quietly muttering each other's name alone..
...The fact that we are doing this to each other.
without knowing at all.
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