Beethoven Reborn - Episode 183
Beethoven Reborn Episode 183
41. A blunt viola and a dull violin (3)
People flocked to the cafe near the university..
Still, since I was just watching from afar, there wasn't much of a problem in conversation..
The paparazzi are still annoying though.
“what are you thinking?”
“ What?”
“We're not that close..”
Charles Braum said something strange..
After the audition for concertmaster of the Berlin Philharmonic, I resolved all my grievances with him, but it seems he is not Charles Braum..
“It's uncomfortable?”
“It would be a lie if I said no.”
I thought he was boring, but he has a more petty personality than I thought..
Although the time we met in person was short, it was very different from the impression I had..
“Once again, I like Braum's violin. Braum also likes my music, so we can be friends..”
Charles Braum looked at me quietly and then laughed..
“I can't stand it.”
We had a quick snack and talked about various things..
“But why did your personality change so much??”
“how?”
“In a disgusting way.”
Charles Braum frowned and then started talking..
“Your violin was a shock. I couldn't believe it was played by a child less than 10 years old..”
sucked down orange juice.
“Until then, I never had any doubts that I was the best. How did you feel when you thought you were a genius but found out you weren't? you never know.”
“Oh, here's another glass of juice, please..”
I turned my head and saw Charles Braum..
he continued talking.
“It was from then on. I repeated practice and denial. Then one day, a thought suddenly occurred to me. Is this obsession a feeling of inferiority toward you or is it just a desire to become closer to the violin?.”
nodded.
“It was difficult, but I was eventually able to be honest. He said he felt inferior. Geniuses exist and let’s accept that. After that, I was just humbled..”
“It's boring.”
“you.”
“charles braum.”
I looked straight into his eyes and opened my mouth..
His first problem was his obsession with being a genius, and his second problem was the differentiation he made between himself and me..
“Don't worry about being a genius or anything like that. You are a violinist better than anyone else and no one can replace you..”
I spoke clearly because I needed to convince him..
“……you don't know.”
“i know.”
know. I know very well.
Even before I became an adult, I was overshadowed by a great genius..
I wonder how Choi Ji-hoon felt when he met me because I lived under the pressure of following his invisible back..
I know very well what Charles Braum must have thought of me..
“How long have you played the violin??”
“••••••well.”
“Whenever I had time, I would always hold it..”
“yes.”
“You like the violin. So I continued. Now you're a great violinist, but you're the only one who doesn't know your true value.”
Charles Braum, who was a little skeptical, chuckled..
“I never thought I would be comforted by a child.”
“It's not comfort.”
I was a little angry at him for not being able to accept the truth..
“No one has talent from the beginning. People who don't know anything easily try to understand that they are geniuses. That's not understanding, it's disregard for the person's efforts..”
The clerk brought me orange juice with ice..
After giving it a look, he looked at Charles Braum again and said:.
“Others don't know. Because I'm not with you all day. I call you a genius because I don't know that the only thing you think about is the violin from the time you wake up until you go to sleep. And Braum you don't know about me either.”
What is a genius?.
I think it's a curse.
Until I was able to play the piano like this, I worked hard all my life and this life as well..
I was always with the piano, and when I ate curry, drank orange juice, or made coffee, I only thought about the piano..
thought about music.
just because I like it.
Same goes for Charles Braum..
The ‘geniuses’ I saw were always like that..
Even Amade, who thought it was insurmountable, said that no one would ever know how much effort he had put in..
“……I guess so. But time.”
He wouldn't understand if he didn't know that I lived two lives..
It's natural.
But that's not the point.
Since I couldn't accept the correct answer verbally, I asked him questions so that he could think for himself..
This is the teaching method my mother gave me..
There weren't many cases where it worked, but.
“I think my current violin is better than yours?”
“••••••no.”
Now I'm a little more honest.
“I think so. So who is the genius??”
“Of course it's you. You are focusing on composition and piano, so if you start playing the violin again, you will soon be like me..”
“Be careful what you say, Charles Braum. Because I can't stand the violinist I respect being insulted..”
I said looking at his shaking eyes..
“The reason I don't continue playing the violin is because I have something I like more. And the reason I'm worse than you is because I don't love the violin as much as you do..”
I held up a dewy glass of orange juice. The moderately melted ice moved with a clatter..
“If there is such a thing as genius, it shouldn't be about talent. How much he likes it. That should be the standard. And you, who has only thought about the violin all your life, are definitely a genius. No one can deny that, not even you.”
‘Who is a greater genius?.’
Is there any more rude question than that?.
Bach and Handel.
me and mozart.
Schubert, Liszt, Chopin, Schumann, Brahms, Tchaikovsky, Makhmaninoff, etc..
Comparison and contrast are good tools to aid understanding, but if you go beyond that and create differences, it can be an insult to those who have devoted their lives to it..
short life.
Life is too short to lose yourself in the curse-like word genius..
In that respect.
I love a brother who clings to that name and even though he gets frustrated and sheds tears, he never loses himself and walks forward..
I wouldn't be able to forgive Charles Braum if he lived thinking that one day I would overtake him again..
“Your brilliant life is too precious to live like that..”
I drank orange juice. The ice has melted too much so the taste is a bit bland..
As I put down my glass, Charles Braum seemed to gather his thoughts and opened his mouth..
“You're really good at saying embarrassing things.?”
‘This person.’
I tried to think about it and told him, but he just said nonsense..
Charles Braum laughed. Unlike before, I felt relieved, so I was a little relieved..
“I know. yes. You can't ruin it because of something like that..”
“ that's right.”
Charles Braum said to himself after drinking coffee.
“……Thanks to you, I feel relieved. thank you.”
“It's no big deal.”
Now that I've roughly corrected his thoughts, I should get to the point..
“So, I have no intention of joining the orchestra.?”
“orchestra? Berlin?”
“no. ludwig philharmonic.”
“Was there a place like that??”
“It will happen.”
I was trying to explain the Ludwig Philharmonic to him, but he shook his head..
“It's hard to go anywhere else. As you know, Interplay has been talking about it..”
They're bastards again.
“What do you mean?”
“I think the agency will be merged with Interplay. Interplay and my agency want me to pursue solo activities as Interplay's exclusive violinist and take on the role of concertmaster of the London Philharmonic. The price offered is good and it is the best in the world.
A concertmaster who can perform individual activities in an orchestra. Interesting.”
“The best orchestra in the world is the Berlin Philharmonic..”
“well.”
After bickering for a while, we came back to the main topic..
There were already 7 glasses on the table..
“But I don't want to do that. But I'm in no position to refuse.”
Prince Charles Braum of the British Royal Family.
I love England and its music more than anyone else, but I couldn't give in to the dictatorship led by capital..
However, it was difficult to imagine how much agony he was going through as he listened to his position, where it was difficult to ignore his own country..
“Actually, some bad things are being said about teaching here. How long can I do this?……
If it were me I would have ignored that bullshit, but he has his point..
You can't criticize it by saying it's stuffy or boring..
I listened to him silently..
“A lot has happened before the creation of this university’s music school. I wonder if there is a need for that since there is also the Berlin University of the Arts. As you can see, most of the music schools here are international students..”
“ ah.”
Come to think of it, that's right.
“Although it may not seem like it, there is still racism in Europe. It is true that it is difficult for children who want to study music in Europe to adapt. So, I want to create a comfortable environment for them. If possible.”
‘They say he's a prince, so I think he's quite classy..’
He's a cool person..
“I'll do the orchestra thing next time..”
After raising a glass to each other, I parted ways with Charles Braum..
I was full, probably because I drank 4 drinks, so I headed home and Nakamura and Himura happened to be in front of the house..
“Himura, Nakamura.”
“Are you coming now? It's late?”
“I met Charles Braum. It's late because we're talking about this and that..”
“……The one-piece personality is still the same..”
Himura said something I couldn't understand..
I think I've done this a few times before, but it wasn't important so I passed it over..
“Oh, and I met Ryoko at school.”
“okay? how was it?”
“I guess I was busy. He just said hello and entered the classroom..”
“I thought it would be a little different for you. I can't help it. haha!”
“Let’s have a meal together before we go back to Japan..”
“well. I don't know if Ryoko will come. Let me tell you. Ah, thank you.”
As we entered the house while talking, Do-jin walked up and opened his arms..
Now, it's getting a bit difficult to hug her, but she's so cute that I keep hugging her..
But today, unlike usual, I buried my face in his arms and asked.
“what happened?”
There was no answer and I didn't know what to do, but my mother came to me smiling..
“I guess I'm upset because I failed the test.”
“It's a test?”
“I asked him if he wanted to go to the same university as my brother, so I looked into it. Dojin, if you work hard, you can pass next time..”
“Hmm.”
I think we'll really go together next year..
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